shoot me now

Alright, let's do a recap of the week...Wednesday night - car accident; Thursday - dealing with insurance people and getting a temporary vehicle; Friday - 9 hour long photoshoot in Wyandotte, MI; Saturday - sore all day from photoshoot and just annoyed; Sunday - 4 year anniversary of my mother's tragic death [never a good day], also had to get a shit-ton of homework done; Monday - classes, need i say more; Tuesday - take a quiz and rush to get my scene painting project done; finally today - STRESSED OUT and about to find out if they are going to register my car as a total loss. So basically, this last week has sucked horribly. The only positive thing was probably the photoshoot just because those seem to center me for some reason.

Okay, so the car accident. Wednesday night I was leaving my photographers and all hell broke loose. I was going to turn left onto Monroe street [meaning I had to cross 3 lanes of traffic], the lanes furthest from me were clear and there was only one car coming toward me from the left in the lane closest to me. The car had their right turn signal on so I foolishly assumed they were going to turn onto the street before me. I started pulling out but soon realized that the car kept going straight so I slammed on my breaks. Before I had a chance to put my car in reverse, the other vehicle hit my front end and caused as of Monday an estimated total damage of about $8,400 [i bought my car in August, it's a brand new 2009 Kia Rio 5]. Today I am supposed to get a call telling me whether or not my transmission was damaged, given all the other damages I don't know how it wouldn't be. If the transmission is damaged then it will be registered a 'total loss' and I will be getting a check for how much my car would have been worth right before the crash. If not, I'll have to pay my deductible and wait till the 12th for it to be fixed. Either way, I just want this all to be over with.

Sadly the thing with my mom, if you really want to know, you can just google my name and it will pop up. The point is that i miss her dearly and Oct. 25 is always a day of pain for me and my family.

For the most part I have been trying to use any form of distraction to forget about all of this craziness. The song I am leaving you with today is one that seems to always help me to find peace when I have fallen into sadness.

And that's that.

-BeeBs

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shadowing with text :]

grid of multiples eyes including myself and friends :]

yay

Wow, I'm in a good mood lately. To start, Wednesday I was told i got 94% on my Fundamentals of Mental Human Health test, then on Thursday I received my Plants & Society test wich was completed with a score of 107%. Sooooo basically I'm amazing :]. In all seriousness though, I am very proud of myself, but I have a lot of work to do tomorrow for this class while finding time to talk to a photographer, and I have a canvas to finish Monday for another class. I feel like I have a lot going on right now, but it kind of keeps me balanced in a wierd way. The best part of Monday is going to be getting a new tattoo as a present from my boyfriend for getting good grades so far this semester, it's just going to be a small thing on the back of my neck though. Oh and I just remembered Dexter is on tomorrow [if you don't watch that show, you should].

On the other side of the spectrum is my health. I saw my doctor Thursday and she noticed a mild estrophia in my right eye, so adding that with my chronic headaches and visual confusion she decided i need to go see a Neuro-Optimologist and get an MRI/MRA. On the plus side she gave me Flexeril to help me sleep and ease my growing back pain. If you can't tell, I'm kind of falling apart physically. But oh well, I'm trying to stay somewhat optimistic, music will be the main thing to get me through this.

In other news, today was a seemingly good day. I baked a chocolate buttermilk cake yesterday from scratch and I took a piece to my friend Aaron who sold me my car, and I also took one to my friend Tracee. Tracee lives in Ypsilanti, so I love the chance to get out of town for a day and go visit her. For the most part I cannot stand girls, they bitch and are stupid, but the very few girls I am friends with a very unique fun individuals whom I adore. After model and halloween talk, we decided to watch Ghostbusters 1 AND 2...wonderful. Seeing Bill Murray always makes me want to watch the movie Stripes, but really almost anything with him is great. One interesting movie that is an all time fav of mine that you should check out if you haven't already is YPF [Young People Fucking], it's honest, funny, and just crazy good. I think my mind is being drawn toward watching Harold and Maude tonight though, I miss that movie. In fact, I think I am going to end the day early and put it in now. :]

-BeeBs

here is a song for the child in us all...and a movie trailer for the holiday.