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Even though my health has been upsetting me, I'd be lying right now if I said I wasn't happy. I spent the last week studying for 2 tests [both over 6 chapters], one was this morning and getting done with it was the biggest sigh of relief. There was only one question that made me second guess myself, but everything else just came naturally. As stressed out as I get from school, it always makes my day whenever I realize I am doing well in classes.

Outside of school, my life is still full of drama, mainly because of my family. Friday I was feeling pretty good since I got to spend the day with my nephew and visit my grandparents. Seeing those three always puts a smile on my face. That night my younger sister came into town for a funeral [one of her friends died in a motorbike accident last week], so I dropped my nephew off with her so she could spend some time with him; i knew it would cheer her up. When my older sister came to get my nephew though, she was waring my sister's $150 Coach sandals so they had some words. Then, while my older sister was driving home, she got pulled over for speeding the second time this week, while having a suspended license so she started freaking out. In the end she was taken to jail and her boyfriend had to come down and pay her $1,000 bail. In my mind she's a total failure in life. Saturday I was in bed almost all day studying, so not much happened there. On Sunday I spent a lot of time with my younger sister and her boyfriend before they head back to Colorado today. I showed her how do Spray Paint Space Art and made her 2 paintings for her to take home. The path she is laying out for herself in life is very upsetting to me, which makes it hard for me to spend a lot of time with her, but art allows us to forget about everything else and just be happy together. I honestly hope her boyfriend dies though lol, I know that sounds cruel, but if you met him...you'd feel the same way.

The constant good in my life is all thanks to music, art, specific family members, my boyfriend and dog whom I share my home with, and mindless television. As long as those things stay the way they are, I think I'll be able to always find the positive in this cluster fuck I call me life.

-BeeBs

this blog's song is inspired by my happiness.

urban jungle

slideshow I composed to reveal the contrast of crumbling buildings with thriving greenery consuming them within the Old West End

distraction

sO I completely forgot to blog last night due to some unexpected events, but I have a free moment now and decided it would be best. I am relieved to write that my stress level has gone down considerably thanks to my family and our lawyers. This weekend was amazing; I got to see my nephew and my little brother. My nephew is probably one of the cutest kids I have ever seen and I enjoy any chance I get to babysit or visit him [his mother and I do not get along what so ever]. My brother and I however get along perfectly...

Sunday morning I dropped off my dog at a friends and then headed to West Virginia with my boyfriend to see my brother and friend Sam. Sam is not the typical type of person i spend time with, but he is very entertaining when you give him the chance. Morgantown is a beautiful city and I am very happy my brother is there and got out of Toledo, there's nothing left here for my family [the only reason I stayed was for my brother, and I am moving to CO next year now that he' gone]. The best part of Morgantown was Dorsey Park, there is a rock formation and once you're on top of it you can see the entire city; it's the highest point within 10 miles. The parties and the city were awesome but just spending time with my brother really helped me get a sense of normality again. I love getting out of town at least once a month and I wouldn't mind Morgantown being one of my regular visiting places.

I was nervous about having 5 classes this semester but I have found myself loving all of them. Each class is totally different but they are all things I love to learn about and find fascinating. Possibly my favorite class is Scene Painting, working over a canvas for 2 hours twice a week just centers me, anything with art does. Hence why I am going into the field of Art Therapy. I just hope the rest of the semester stays on such a positive note.

Writing got me in the mood for some art, but as always I will leave you with a song that has meant something to me this week...truth.

-BeeBs

drained

Wow...the last couple days I have felt completely exhausted. Yesterday was horrid; I have had carpal tunnel in my left hand for about 5 years thanks to crew, but for some reason it randomly decided to act up. It got to the point I could barely drive cause every time i turned the wheel i would get shooting pains throughout my hand. Oh well, I'm going to talk to my doctor about it next week and hopefully it won't be giving me anymore problems.

Today I did not awake to anything better, my hand still hurt some and I felt very ill. Still I suffered through my classes, got my groceries, and am doing homework. 13 ABC is making my life very arduous though by hounding my family members for an interview [thankfully my facebook and myspace are under alias's]. It really shocks me they they went through the effort to track down my sister on facebook asking her to speak with them after everything they did to us in the past. Either way, my grandparents will resolve the situation or I will ignore and be happy. I find it amusing that it is only the second week of school and it is already taking such a huge toll on my stress. Honestly I need school to keep me organized and focused though, this summer I was so bored and mindless, it's nice to have a daily distraction from my overly complicated life. My daily enjoyment usually comes from my boyfriend, music, and my dog, but today my scene painting class took the cake; nothing relaxes me more than art. Hopefully I can find a school close enough to Arcata, CA to transfer to next year that has a program.

Well, it's getting kinda late and I have barely eaten so I am going to have some din din and make some astronomy outlines for class tomorrow. Here's a song that has been circling my mind all day...Simple

-BeeBs